The company was broken up and sold and the business that I was in became it's own separate entity. It became a stand alone company with a ton of new leadership. My manager moved out west and a new manager came in who just didn't like me at all. This was despite excellent evaluations for almost 3 years. It was miserable. He caused me a lot of stress and pain and drove me right out of the company. It was heartbreaking.
Our zone, since he took over, has over 50% turnover! It is incredible how horrible the culture has become. It is sad. Many of my colleagues are looking to get out and many of those who I managed are looking to get out. It has become a miserable place to work. You never realize the importance of a dynamic CEO until they leave. I hope they can turn it around, but with the current leadership in place I doubt that will ever happen.
So now what? A lot of decisions are being made. A lot of prayer is being offered up for guidance. A lot of working hard towards forgiving the company and particular individuals who caused so much pain. The Bible says in Colossians 3:13:
Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you, so also do ye.
I've learned through the years (and the Bible teaches) that forgiveness is a choice. It can be a very difficult choice, but it is something as a Christian I am commanded to do. Forgiveness does not mean restored relationships or that the pain goes away, it just means that you have chosen to move on and not dwell on the harm that was done to you. It doesn't mean that there aren't consequences, or that the behavior is condoned. It is a conscious choice to move on and not seek revenge.
I do believe you can forgive someone AND seek justice for a wrong. If someone has wronged you or even broken the law, there should be justice and a penalty. That is different from forgiving someone from a wrong they have done to you personally.
I am definitely fighting bitterness and anger, but I have chosen to forgive. God is in control and that is good enough for me!
I have poured out my heart in this blog post, so forgive me if it was a downer. Blogging is therapeutic to me. I really can't explain it. I have always blogged or wrote in a journal. Writing/typing my thoughts out brings a lot of healing. I've went through some hard times in my life and I like going back and reading what the Lord brought me through! The Most High is so good and merciful!
So on to more uplifting stuff! Our little Payton is doing great. This was her first Christmas and it was amazing. We are so blessed to have her and she brings so much joy to our family. It was a wonderful celebration of the Messiah's birth. What a celebration it was. Getting together with my family and with my in laws was amazing. I am blessed!
I have decided to expand the Homestead Welding Shop. I am a certified welder and I have been kicking it around for a while. Check out the new page on the website here. The page is under construction but will have more content over the next few weeks. I'm very excited about it. I am trusting in the Lord and putting it in His Hands. He will have to provide the extra equipment I need as I will not go into debt to expand.
I will also be incorporating our YouTube Channel into the business. I hope you will follow along and see what happens! If you haven't subscribed, please click here.
Thanks for checking in and please continue to pray for us! And please reach out if you need prayer. We would count it a privilege to pray for you. The Bible says in James 5:16 that we should pray for one another. What a blessing it is to pray for one another!
Check out the latest video from the Homestead! God bless. - Steve